which is maybe because
I'm having trouble getting at me
The self-perceived complexities of my life
are so much more finite
than the Simplicity that is God
(which lends itself to some odd & awkward
gymnastics of faith)
But the complexities distract from the Simplicity
even though the Simplicity is in all complexities.
Still, I don't trust finding me
to find God
because the details interrupt my view
of the big picture too easily
(Can't God fix that?!)
So I might point to a strong beautiful elm and pray
"Give me faith like that"
only to hear God saying
"But I'm like a fish"
In other words, my compass is off,
so I need God to get at me
externally right now
because I'm floundering
(Aha! There's the fish!
I didn't even plan that.)
You should really intervene now, God.